Two words, wide angle.


Folks, meet my new 12-24mm lens. It's wide, it's sturdy, and it's dope. This thing just screams.

Life is about making choices. And mistakes. But sometimes, there are just some mistakes that I know it's a mistake, but I still had to do it because only then I know for sure that it was indeed, a mistake. It is not a cycle, but more like random dots.
And there are degrees of mistakes.

Yet, more importantly is the ability to stop when committing a mistake. This is what I called a Brake theory. It is a function of time of which the variable depends on friction coefficients of two surfaces.
It not only tells me that I had gone too far, but also helps me to stop .

This withdrawal point is actually instantaneous (like snap!). It is when dy/dx=0. It's a turning point. True enough, the consequences of this circumstance depends solely on the degrees of mistakes. But the scale is immeasurable. It is unknown. The only way to guesstimate is to look back in retrospect and evaluate the possible repercussions. Point is,

I am telling you now. Do not do this. You are making a mistake.

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"Every truth has two sides; it is as well to look at both, before we commit ourselves to either."
-Aesop

Of connecting the dots

Sometimes I just like the possibilities, but never the outcome.
And, it can be very deceiving out there. I hope, one day, I could look back and connect the dots with great bliss.

"Hope, deceiving as it is, serves at least to lead us to the end of our lives by an agreeable route."
-Francois de La Rochefoucauld

Goodbye Princess Frog

I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.

-Pablo Neruda

Furor, and the legacy of you.

Why are you so angry?
Everything I said is wrong..
Everything I do is not good enough..
Why can't things last?
Where did all the happiness go?

I don't understand.
I don't.

I'm trying. I really am. But I guess you just didn't see that.

Why Federal Highway is screwed

Now get this,

1. There is a Mathematical Society of Traffic Flow in Japan. I bet their president is some dude who just pissed off with the traffic and at the same time good at math.

2. Cool thing is, they simulated how traffic jam occurred out of nothing. Tom Cruise was right after all, the traffic is like a living organism that moves like a "shockwave". The explanation however, is simple. Varying speed of vehicles. Or some asshole on a cellphone. See below.


The paradox convergence

sometimes i feel like a great football player
who has trained his entire life
to learn every new skill
to dribble, shoot and score
& dream up how the crowds would cheer
& how the opponent would envy
everytime i shoot a goal
yet sometimes i feel like an idiot
because at every match
i sit at a bench
as a substitute

thus sometimes i wish
i could just retire
and pass the baton to someone else
who is younger
& more skillful
& more energetic
yet i persevere
even the time wasted
& the emotional baggage
is more painful than
a torn ligament

i stay persistent because
this is my ambition
my desire, my passion
and i dont want to suffer
because at the end, i know
people who suffer the most
are those who dont know
what they want

While I was creeping to get some golds in DotA , suddenly I thought of a few economics problems of nation scale which lead to me asking these questions to myself.

1. Are we blaming the government for our lack on income?
2. Are we jealous of certain connected people getting rich?
3. Do we just want to see, for once, politicians that are not rich, like that Afghan President? or,
4. Are we so blinded by what the world has to offer, that we forgot about life afterwards.

(Before that I was reading a blog about the accusations of corruptions in government)

I paused DotA at point number four because at this junction, I think, religion does matter.
Ergo, the question of Efficiency vs Fairness stops here.

Enough of that

I'm thinking of too much politics.
Alas, back to DotA mode. Later, bitches.

Smart-ass Game Theory

I'm a fan of Game Theory. It is basically decisions based on predictions of what the opponent would do. What more interesting is, Game Theory calculates all facets not only from Probability Theory, but also from behavior of the opponents, time, and issues at hand. Case in point, a simple poker game. (I'm too lazy to write further explanation, please wiki-google if you wanna know more)

Only the difference here, all the assumptions are taken from my arse.

So the question is, what would BN do next?

Short-term
1. Bribe opposition MPs/Assemblymen to join BN
2. Paklah stays (avoid the impression of disunity)
3. Continue play down the mainstream media
4. Clean-up mess made by Tajol Rosli and Khir Toyo before audit comes (maybe too late)
5. Moderate internet bandwidth to suppress people from watching Youtube
6. Kill Anwar Ibrahim

Long-term
1. Convince opposition party to join BN
2. Convince Anwar Ibrahim to join BN
3. Kill DEB
4. Annouce another mega-plan for party with hope to win the people
5. Let Malaysian economy collapse, just to prove a point
6. Slow-down the implementation of north and east corridors
7. Invent more 'efficient' SPR tactics to spin votes

Sad as it may sound, the BN ruled Malaysia based on divide-and-conquer tactic (again, assumption taken from my own arse). It worked fine until someone genius maneuvered that to his own advantage. Who do you think masterminded Hindraf rally? But I think you already know that. The result? Massive vote-swing from Chinese and Indians.

I'm getting everywhere here. Hope you didn't buy my nonsense. Almost sounds like quantum shit. I should write a book. Ha ha.

So the BN lost a few seats, big deal.

But I already imagining, Anwar Ibrahim, sitting comfortably at his house shouting "In your face, bitches!"
I bet he's the happiest guy in town when the results were announced last night.

The newspapers are calling this a Political Tsunami or whatever the fuck. They already dispatching whole troops of political analysis to say something smart, and at the same time not mocking to current government. "We need to get to the bottom of this", says one pro-analyst.

But for me it's simple. The people are giving the government a warning.

Since I already sound like I know a lot about all this stuff, let me add that in Penang, the situation is most confusing. The opposition swept most the DUN seats. Here I thought the Malays were unhappy with the local government especially those in pulau, but turns out the Chinese were unhappy as well. So the question is, what was Koh Tsu Koon doing? I bet he must've done something terrible awful to get this kinda rejection.

The biggest mistake that BN did, I think, was the lineups of the candidates. Not to mention the sons of ministers who suddenly took over a few places. I feel repulse just to name them. And also, now with many ministers out of the way, I bet KJ and Mukhriz will be in Cabinet. Duh.

Whatever it is, I hope with this new Parliaments arrangement, there would be less spin and bias decision. BN, it's called Check-and-Balance.
Later, bitches.

Someone told me that we should not vote for BN because bla bla bla
Someone also told me that we must support the current government because bla bla bla

All these mixed messages, unbalanced media, peoples reaction, SPR decision and government decision lead me to do my own analysis. And it is the only thing that matters, at least for me.

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A friend told me that he does not like Khairy Jamaluddin. He said "Who is he? Who is this guy who suddenly emerged in Malaysia politic scene like he is someone?"

And I thought to myself, KJ is just a random guy. He was no one. This makes me feel sad. Why?

Because in Malaysia, you have to be someone in order to get into the political scene. If KJ weren't married to you-know-who, would he made it to who he is today?

But what bug me the most is, I want a country that offers equal opportunity to everyone in terms of education, employment, politics, commerce and all those. And here, I see people are still not ready for this kinda change.
Status quo still plays important role in people's decision.
Unequal distribution of wealth is rampant.
The Social Contract is forgotten by vast majority.

We are just not ready, yet.

(And here I am, in the midst of national election, spending my time playing DotA. I wish I am below 21. Please don't judge me)

Of errors and uncertainties

"You're not much of a challenge"
She replies, "Bring it on.."

"Let see where this will take us"
"To the moon"

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